Digital love, again. I am home, but already wish I was back. I am trying to fight this feeling, because I'm scared I am cheating myself. Only time tells I guess.
The problem is I don't really have any.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
the currency of people
People are judged on their worth; currency is all about the aspects of a person that affect their relationships with others and garner them respect and admiration or resentment and hatred. here at 交通大学 age and ethnicity don't have much bearing, and i have written before about how cool that is. Language, however, is paramount. If you can speak Chinese better than your friend, it doesn't matter where he worked or went to school or even if he's your senior. And with no dearth of Koreans and Japanese and Indonesians and Thai and so forth, students who speak multiple languages are the coolest of the cool. It's interesting to see older, established friends in the beginning levels and semi to fully fluent guys my age hang out with locals and stuff like that. The playing field is all about Mandarin. Not only is it an unspoken wavelength of strength and confidence, but it can and does manifest itself in tangible ways. For example: two students and some Zhong guo ren are hanging out in Shanghai, and the higher level student decides to slip in a joke in Mandarin at the expense of lower level student causing instant laughter from all but said fresh meat. The beginner can only give a sheepish smile and steel himself to study harder. This is a cold knife in the back that is plunged more often than you'd think, sometimes without a thought. But for the beginners, it sure is a shitty feeling to not understand and feel so dumb.
Makes me wish I treated foreigners in high school better. Then again...that can lead to MORE problems which I won't elaborate on now. Sigh.
Zaijian
Makes me wish I treated foreigners in high school better. Then again...that can lead to MORE problems which I won't elaborate on now. Sigh.
Zaijian
Listening to Wang Lee Hong and not phased at all. Whatup tho? This doesn't make a lot of sense to me if I REALLY think about it.
This semester in Shanghai taught me a few important things. Namely, that I am lazy and somewhat of a selfish prick. Well, I guess there are positives to be had as well.
At 23 years of age I think I can come to terms with the fact that I was at best mildly socially retarded until somewhere near the end of college, despite ups that made me normal and downs that made me really really socially retarded. Here in Shanghai I have had a lot of fun, grown a lot, and been able to experience the same exact problems of life and love and friendship that I thought I had learned from in the past and vowed to never let happen again.
I can't believe Doug is leaving, that crazy gege...we didn't Shanghai it to the fullest mostly because he's a bum.
I have to do the shout out thing, apologies to myself and my infatuation with maturity. The shout is still something I feel a part of me. I will look at this note, or not, and be embarrassed. I don't care. I'm still young, good looking, and shake when I laugh. Spence, Chloe, Los, Wanda... I wish I could still come back to the U.S., but I need to concentrate on my studies, character, health, and recovery from clubs and baijiu and STDs. So let the shout outs roll nei geeeeeeeeeee
Yoon- My good boy, he's no Uncle Tom contrary to some others' opinions. A really humble, fun guy with the best laugh in the business. Seriously his laugh will lift your mood. You know that guy, the guy you WANT to see when you're in a shitty mood. Not only that, but he's got wisdom and his humility can make one forgot he's got more going on upstairs than most of us, and the credentials to prove it. Loved balling with you, quick shot Jamison. How about this for a concrete goal, cuz I know I will visit you in SK: get Carter. Drunk, assault him, get him laid, I don't know. Something. Get Carter. I know you are loving this if you are reading it and if not than SK has already changed you and in that case I don't like you. Sorry I didn't party with you before left, but I agree with you totally that drawn out goodbyes are bad luck for meeting again. See you later.
Alex Ho- dude I don't want to associate you with killing Russians because you are more than that. A real funny guy, agressively funny, and probably the #1 ninja at getting cats to go out even when they want to stay in. I mean, you practically were gonna urinate Team Jackson. You are sensitive and thoughtful as well, and you have heart. You hurled and came back to the spartans same day, and you killed that Russian. Gonna try and check you in NYC though you are not living large yet, probably just stressed out. Hit me up on AIM and MSN you bitch.
Sue and Cho combo #3- You girls are so cute. Sue do you know about your 3 forms? Cho makes me feel warm inside with her "Nyahahhaa," and "Muhuhuhu".
Shit man, I'm feeling 难过 all of a sudden. Time to start packing up my room. Zaijian
This semester in Shanghai taught me a few important things. Namely, that I am lazy and somewhat of a selfish prick. Well, I guess there are positives to be had as well.
At 23 years of age I think I can come to terms with the fact that I was at best mildly socially retarded until somewhere near the end of college, despite ups that made me normal and downs that made me really really socially retarded. Here in Shanghai I have had a lot of fun, grown a lot, and been able to experience the same exact problems of life and love and friendship that I thought I had learned from in the past and vowed to never let happen again.
I can't believe Doug is leaving, that crazy gege...we didn't Shanghai it to the fullest mostly because he's a bum.
I have to do the shout out thing, apologies to myself and my infatuation with maturity. The shout is still something I feel a part of me. I will look at this note, or not, and be embarrassed. I don't care. I'm still young, good looking, and shake when I laugh. Spence, Chloe, Los, Wanda... I wish I could still come back to the U.S., but I need to concentrate on my studies, character, health, and recovery from clubs and baijiu and STDs. So let the shout outs roll nei geeeeeeeeeee
Yoon- My good boy, he's no Uncle Tom contrary to some others' opinions. A really humble, fun guy with the best laugh in the business. Seriously his laugh will lift your mood. You know that guy, the guy you WANT to see when you're in a shitty mood. Not only that, but he's got wisdom and his humility can make one forgot he's got more going on upstairs than most of us, and the credentials to prove it. Loved balling with you, quick shot Jamison. How about this for a concrete goal, cuz I know I will visit you in SK: get Carter. Drunk, assault him, get him laid, I don't know. Something. Get Carter. I know you are loving this if you are reading it and if not than SK has already changed you and in that case I don't like you. Sorry I didn't party with you before left, but I agree with you totally that drawn out goodbyes are bad luck for meeting again. See you later.
Alex Ho- dude I don't want to associate you with killing Russians because you are more than that. A real funny guy, agressively funny, and probably the #1 ninja at getting cats to go out even when they want to stay in. I mean, you practically were gonna urinate Team Jackson. You are sensitive and thoughtful as well, and you have heart. You hurled and came back to the spartans same day, and you killed that Russian. Gonna try and check you in NYC though you are not living large yet, probably just stressed out. Hit me up on AIM and MSN you bitch.
Sue and Cho combo #3- You girls are so cute. Sue do you know about your 3 forms? Cho makes me feel warm inside with her "Nyahahhaa," and "Muhuhuhu".
Shit man, I'm feeling 难过 all of a sudden. Time to start packing up my room. Zaijian
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