You want something, kind of. You get it. You get tired of it and discard it and forget about it.

You want something; you think it is really important to you. You get it and realize it's not.

You want something really badly, and after some work you get a taste. But that's it, no more. Drives you crazy. This is where I am now. And honestly, it's a great feeling to feel this way again.


I wish I was going with the ABC crew to guilin! Studying today in the dim lights of tao li yuan was damn depressing. Seems like everyone is away on vacation. Yoon and co. leave today for the city of my dreams and the paradise that is Yangshuo. I wrote once upon a time that Guilin was like a glimpse of a beautiful girl you pass by on a perfect day. I wanted to know her, to return to her, but knew in my heart that by the time I returned she would be gone or at least irrevocably changed.

Randolph and Ocala are in Nanjing up to no good no doubt. Even Justin is teaching Japanese to someone and has been away all day. I feel damn alone. Solution? Basketball in the sun with some fellow stragglers, followed by weights in the gym. I want to see Doug. If I can't, guess I'll dial up one of these numbers in my phone and see what happens...

Missing fresh air and ocean breezes. Need a haircut.

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